Day one of two is my first day off since forever ? It could have been the roaring log fire in reception and the luxurious aroma of wood smoke but
I guess it was the heated swimming pool, the eucalyptus steam bath
followed by the sauna that swung the hotel in favour. The rest of the day I spent
walking the historic turreted town of Lancaster in a fog of contentment.
In early evening I caught North West tonight and Granada reports that further polarised a misty eyed nostalgia for Lancashire. A “local story” is national news today no doubt the respective news teams will be happy. On the edge of the lake district I watched sunset by the outdoor hot tub over the rolling hills of clough that surround Lancaster. I spend the evening on relearning my lines with the assistant director.
Day two The hotel is ten minutes walk from Nuffield Theatre where I am stood backstage as the audience pour in. My one person show Why I Don’t Hate White People is about to begin. The travelling team are the lighting technician, a stage
manager and an assistant director. It’s an enjoyable performance and ninety percent stay for an electric Question and Answer.
Exhausted I return to the stage after the applause and sat on stage for the beginning of the question time when a small woman of about sixty came and hugged me. “My son” she said “Who I searched for because of you. Remember him?”. I nodded in the affirmative. . Those moments after finishing a performance I’m open. The body and heart and brain seem to be in the process of recollecting themselves. It’s a vulnerable state. “he killed himself a month ago” she said.
She came to one of my readings about twenty years ago and realised she was in the same mother and baby home as my own mother for whom I was searching. Subsequently she searched and found her adopted son. Subsequently I interviewed her when making a BBC documentary about my own search. I’d received the occasional message over the years about her newfound son . Apparently he wanted to meet me. She sat back down and the Question and answer session began.